♥ Its too much for me to handle ♥

How i wish sometimes these things never happen.
How i wish i have never done all that.
How i wish i can prevent all this from happening.
I got no one else to blame but myself.
Because of me, all this happened.
I do feel that its too much for me to handle.
But i get to know that God gave me this life because he knows I'm capable of making through all the problems, regardless of how hard it gets.
I know i can make it through.
But right now, I keep telling myself to give up this life,
Too bad my heart wont allow that to happen.
I don't know why.
My heart keep asking me to move on and not to give up.
So thats why im still here right now.
Even though, i hate what im going through right now, i hope i can survive through it all with a strong heart.