A picture can mean a thousand words.For the picture above, it shows what im feeling now.
It hurts. Alot.
How am i going to face the truth?
Why must it be me? Why must i live a life like this?
Why cant i just live a simple life with no worries but only happiness?
Every now and then, i would shed tears thinking about this.
But what else can i do?
Its the fact. I have to face it.
Whether i like it or not.
It might bring me down, make me cry non stop and experience excruciating pain,
but i still have to go through.
Even if i know im not strong enough for it.
The pain. The tears. Its unbearable.
From one pain to another.
Why is it so difficult for me?
But i know, i should be thankful to have a great boyfriend beside me.
Im so sorry if i ever make you worried sick.
But didnt i told you not to?
I told you im going to be ohk remember?
Because of you, i smile even though inside im screaming in pain.
Only God knows how i feel in my heart.
Feel like running away far far away,
but to where?
I dont think i can run that far.
Far enough for me to run away from this reality that im facing.
Sometimes i just wish all this was just a dream.
A nightmare. And when i woke up, it will be gone, just like that.
How i wish im going through all that now.
But too bad, im not.
Im facing the reality.
And the reality is harsh. Too harsh for me.
Its too heavy for me to carry it.
All i can do now is pray to God. Let Him decide what He wanna do next.
Amin.
Much love
♥Superwoman