Hey! Wassup? Sry cos its been days since i last update here. I have been kinda busy lately. I dont even have time to get online. So today is the only chance that i have to update here. I have been feeling weird this days. You know the kinda weird feeling of falling sick? Get me? Yea. Now, both my parents are having a fever. Thats bad i know. But dont worry. I have take my own precautions about this sickness running 'wild' in the house. Mood? Not sure. Mixed? I dont know. I feel like..i dont know how to describe it.Moving on though. I have not asked my mum about tomorrow going out thing. Im kinda scared that she wont allow me to go out. But i have to do it NOW! I cant wait and delay it. I have been at home for MONTHS! I mean it. I seldom go out and have fun with my friends. I mean i dont know. Its like as if to them when im going out with my friends, im going to be influence by the bad stuffs. I know my boundaries. I am almost 17 and yet, i dont get to go out like any other 17-year-old girl would do at this time. Its so hard for me. Not for them. I dont get it lah. Maybe to them GOING OUT + FRIENDS = BAD INFLUENCE! Wth! I know myself. I mean im already teenager and im going to be an adult soon. But why cant i be treated like one and they would just let me go out some time with my friends? I dont mean in a way that i want to go out every single day. I know my limit. But even when i want to go out ONCE A MONTH, its damn hard! I know lah that they care about me and all sorts of things like that. BUt if i know my limit, they should know their limit right? I feel like a fool at home. I have nothing else to do. Just eat, sleep, send my lil brother to school. Thats all. I dont really enjoy all this. Cant i enjoy life for just a lil while? Just let me have fun for few days. Let me see the real world. Let me get ready for the real outside world. I need to go out and just have some fun. Even just for awhile. It wont harm will it? Urgh! See what i mean when i say my life is complicated? I can bet that my life is much worst than yours. Maybe all this need time. But until when?! Until im 21?! Damn! If its true, then im so bastard! I really hope some MIRACLE would happen and change my life right now. Im beginning to suffocate. My life is suffocating me! I think i, myself, is making my life miserable. I have to do something about it. I mean i dont want to change my life drastically. Even if it takes time, i would want to see at least some changes to my life right now. Im not saying that my life cant have curfews but at least im able to go out with my friends at a certain day. If i can really do that, i will definitely feel better about my life and at least i know my parents are slowly treating me like an adult which they should be doing it now though. I guess all this takes some time to happen. All i need is to be patient about it.
Next topic please! My love life. Its been great this days. Fantastic! Its the way it should be. Less fighting and more love! I definitely feel the love goin stronger nowadays. Fantastic huh? I know its been tough for us since i can barely meet up with him. But all it needs is some patient. I will try my best to at least gain some freedom from my parents. Its not easy as it looks ohk? But i will give it a shot. My love life have nvr been great! But with him now, its much much better that i expected. I mean i dont expect this relationship to go this far since we only knew each other through friendster and only 1 week after we knew each other, he ask me to be his girlfriend. Its a fast thing though. I mean then, i dont really know his real character. But now, im slowly seeing answers to my questions in the past when we were like 1 month old together. I just want this relationship to continue to be like this until we end our own respective lives. But lets not talk about that now. I just wanna say that i really really appreciate for what he has done for me lately. The love. No guys have given me this feeling. Ever. Its a great feeling. Rush through your blood. Its just undescribable. Maybe one day, you guys will feel it and understand what i mean. Life seems easier with him in my life. At least i have someone that i can share my thoughts with when i need someone to talk to. I mean he is really there for me when i need him. He keeps to his words. And that why i love him so much. Its difficult to find this kinda guy these days. Im not trying to be rude but i just find SOME guys simply egoistic! Thats all. I dont wanna elaborate more on that though. Girls! You should know what i mean.
I think thats it for today. I have nothing else to talk about up here. If i have anything interesting, i will definitely share it with you guys. So dont worry yea! Have a great day ahead! Smile always! Look forward to your future and not dwell about the past. So long! Bye!
(p.s. Picture above: Sorry girls! Hes mine!!! Hehe)
Much love
♥Superwoman