Hey! Wassup people? Im not really in a good mood. Im kind of tired and pissed off at the same time. I just dont know whats up with me lately. I get too angry easily and not only angry but emotionally. I dont get myself. I dont know why am i doing all this. I dont see the reasons behind all this. Its like im doing all this without thinking you know. Stupid right? I know. But dont go overboard about that yea. Doesnt mean i admit that, you have to add on to that. I dont need that ohk? Im not in the mood for all that. And one more thing. Whats up with people going against me huh? I dont see the motives. And why must people betray the trust of someone they knew for like 16-17 years? Shit! Life is getting more and more complicated. Its not like how i imagine it would be you know. Erm. To me, all these things are really getting in my nerves. I dont think i can control my anger if something like this were to happen again in the next few hours or days. I have tried my best to control it. But once im not able to do so, thats it. Im going to 'burst'! I mean it you know. Urgh!Ohk2. Lets move on and talk about another topic. Oh, did you notice that it is already the 31st of January. So fast huh time flies? I really mean it you know. Even though i stayed at home almost every single day, i can feel that time flies really fast. It some sort makes me think through stuffs like making full use of the time that i have now. I dont want it all to go to waste just like that. I need to make use of it before the time runs out for me. Its like im getting older every single day. I mean everyone gets older every single day. Its not like im the only one. You just have to make full use of what you have now. Life. Its important. Dont ruin it just like that. Make sure you do something that is worth your time and will have a great impact on your future. Positively of course! That was what my dad told me this morning when we were on the way to Woodlands Regional Library to return my lil brother's book and help him find another 4 more books. Such a bookworm unlike me. I rather read magazines i tell you. Better. More expose. I mean reading book is good too but to me, when you read magzines you are more exposed to the real outside world and prepare you for your future. You cant expect to have a fantasy life. You have to face the real world one day whether you like it or not. So better get yourself ready right? And man! I write alot today uh? Not bad. Can write a novel one day. Hah. Mcm phm!
Moving on again! Love life. Complicated again. Too many things to handle uh. Making me have headaches. I mean the love is still there no matter what but its getting harder and harder each day. I know i have to go through all this to make our relationship stand strong. I know i can make this relationship better. I mean the love i had for him is undescribable. Words cant be use to describe it. And i just hope he sees it that way. I can feel the love that he has for me. Really. I can feel it even though we seldom meet up. I dont know how to tell him that. But i just hope though here he will know that nothing can change my love for him. I love him soo much that if he ask me end my life now, i would. But definitely, i will ask why he want me to do so uh. I dont want to act stupid you know. To him, if you are reading this, I LOVE YOU! Its here that i can only express my love for you. Im not good at telling it right in your face. Hah. Merepek i know. But its my way though. If you dont like it, then im so sorry about it. You have taught me alot of things about life. Valuable ones of course! You make me feel good about myself. You make me have faith in myself when im down. You carry me when i fall. You are always there by my side when i need someone to talk to. You are different from any guys that i have known my entire life! I know you are. Deep inside my heart i know! No one can read it though. So thats why im writing it all here. Hope you will have time to read it.
Ohk! Wow! Its like the longest post that i have ever posted here! Damn! Im good at this. Well, i guess i have alot of things in my mind right now. Only here, i get to express my inner self. So to those who have read the WHOLE ENTIRE post, congratulations! And thank you for reading it. I mean then you will know who i really am. Im not who you guys think i am. I am different. Im not soo open towards people when it comes to emotions. Now, this blog is like my bestfriend. I write anything i want up here. But i hope that whatever that i have written up here have not hurt anyone emotionally. If i do, im sorry. I didnt mean. Sometimes, i just do things without thinking first.
So thats it for today. I mean i have wrote alot already. Confirm you guys will get bored reading all that shit up there. Sorry. So hope that you guys will have a great weekend and enjoy your life! Smile always! So long! Bye!
Much love
♥Superwoman