Hey! Sry i didnt get the chance to update yesterday because i wasnt feeling that well though. So wassup?? And im sry cos i update a lil bit late today. Yea, i was kinda busy though. Oh btw MERRY CHRISTMAS to all my CHRISTIAN friends and also to my other friends!Currently, i dont know how im feeling. I mean im really feeling confused and all mixed up. I dont know if i should make the first move or not. But my heart seems to be telling me that i should just continue being patient and dont make any stupid decision. I dont wanna regret it later. I know, in my last post i said that i feel like i should end all this but then i've been thinking through all that the last few days. And guess what? I cried last night. AGAIN! OUT OF SUDDEN! I dont know why but i seem to get very emotional whenever i look at pictures that have my memories with HIM. Damn! Its tough. I still love him though but i dont know what to do right now. I feel like meeting up with him and get all these settle! But how am i suppose to ask him? I mean i dont think he would want to reply to my sms anymore! Thats why, i think i should end this! I dont know. Im very confused right now. All i can do is to actually pray to GOD and ask him for his guidance. I really need HIM to show my to the right "PATH" and help me make the right decision. I seriously dont know why is all these happening to me NOW??? Maybe its "PAYBACK" time for the sins that i've done in the past?? Im totally confused. I feel like an IDIOT sometimes. And i have to say that at some time, HE makes me feel like an IDIOT. I dont know if he appreciate me doing all these for him or not?? Or whether he actually know all these things that i've done for him?? I dont know. I cant read mind you see. But i hope he knows it. Seriously, i dont know what is his motive of doing all this?? Does he really want some time being alone or he simply have lost that love he had for me few months ago??? DAMN! I dont like this even a bit! Im going to be emotional again now. I cant help it but to recall all the sweet and bitter memories i had with him. I mean this fight of ours is the worst! But, the way i see it, its only over something small. I bet i can do something to change it if i was given the chance though. But i wasnt given that chance! You say "Its best for both of us". Im really confused when you say that. I mean, do you really think its the best for us?? Or is it simply because you want to run away from me?? You dont want to be committed to me right?? I cant say anything else about this. I dont know but these few days i've been thinking about all these! Dont ask, but i dont know why! WTH!
Ohk. I guess thats all i have for all of you today. I dont want to burst into tears again. I need to be strong to overcome this hardship im going through. Its not going to be easy for me. But i have to do it no matter what! So yea. Thats all folks! And a shoutout to SYAF,WEE & FAHMI, I MISS YOU GUYS LAH!! LETS FIND A DAY WHERE WE CAN MEET UP AND HANG OUT AGAIN LIKE OLD TIMES!!! I MISS THOSE DAYS LAH!!!
Ohk, i've got to go now. Im going to update my friendster though and gave that HARIZ a shoutout at his blog! He ask me to though yesterday! haha. WTH! So yea. Hope you guys will have a FANTASTIC week and enjoy your weekends yea! Anything just tag me yea! So long then! Bye!
Much love
♥Superwoman