♥ Dreams ♥

Im not like any girls.
I have BIG dreams.
Lets emphasis on the DREAMS!
Yes, i dont have one but i have too many dreams until i had a hard time listing them all.
But I'm positively sure that I want to have a very bright future, a happy family & not forgetting a happy life.


But sometimes, i give up to easily when i fail in the beginning of pursuing those dreams.
However, I realised that giving up is never a good solution for any problems.
I just have to continue trying and if it still can't work, then I have to think of another better solution.
& when i say im not like any girls, i really mean it.
Why the hell would i say that?
Try finding for me any girls who do all this as a daily routine:
1. Cook for breakfast, lunch and dinner for family [yea, i cook! NICE YOU KNOW! :D]
2. Unable to wake up in late afternoon, latest would be 10am
3. When mummy working, i will be the 'mummy' at home
4. Have to take care of my grandma, who barely can walk properly
5. Before going to bed, i have to make sure that the whole is clean if not i have to do it before i sleep.
6. Did i told all of you i have curfews since im the 1st child and the only daughter? & i have never break those curfews! :D


There's more to it but my mind is blank right now. Sorry yaw! ;D
But you should get my points by now.
Still, many people out there are judging me for how i look.
Its because of my makeup and what i call, camera trick.
But still, i am who i am.
I may look like a bitch but if you befriend with me, trust me, you will find me one of the friendliest person in the world.
I treasure my friends, regardless if i know them for years or sometimes just a few minutes.
Friends are part of my life.
Without them, my life would be dull.
That's why, i keep saying never judge me by how i look.
Try take some of your time and get to know me better.
But remember, know your limits [for guys!].
Im happily attached! :D
I respect all of my friends, but sadly, sometimes i dont get back the respect i deserve.
Now, those kind of people are not my friends.
They're there for the fun of it.
They use me for their gossip, bitching, etc.
But I simply heck care!
'Cos karma would be a bitch for them!
And yes, I'm refering to a few people though, sadly.
Its their lost, not mine!
So too bad for them.


For others, don't get influence by what other people say about me.
Please dont judge me by how i look or take my pictures.
Come and talk to me, and from there on, you will be the judge.
'Cos people have different perspective about me.
I can't expect everyone to like me.
There will be hatred even though sometimes i try running away from it.
But it's part of life.
God have written all this for me and he have more plans for me in the upcoming future.
Life will never be as smooth as i want it to be.
But if its smooth, I won't be able to learn alot of things about life.
So on the other hand, i thanked God for whatever things he have given to me & my life.
Difficult or easy.
I thanked Him for everything, especially this life of mine which i know is the best than any life out there.
'Cos i have the best family, best friends and definitely the best bf ever!


To Fared;
Honey, I'm willing to sacrifice alot for us because i want us to stay as long as possible.
Whatever I'm doing or going to do is for the best, for me, you & us.
If whatever i said or did have hurt your feelings, i apologised.
I never meant to do it to you.
I love you truly and deeply.
Before i sleep at night, i think of you.
Even in my dreams, you're always in them.
When i wake up every morning, your face will appear in my head first.
Yes, I do cry sometimes at night before i sleep because i miss hearing your voice before i go to bed, i miss making you talk to me to sleep when i can't sleep.
& i definitely miss your hugs & kisses.
Do save them for me when we meet ohk?
You're my everything right now.
Lets hope we can last as long as possible.
Insya-allah!
I ♥ you!


♥