♥ Changed ♥

Reading my previous post from 2009 makes me feel like I've gone so far.
I know I've changed, thats for sure.
But something else.
It seems like I'm much stronger.
From reading the posts, i can actually feel how i suffered in the past.
The pain, the tears.
And now, i find it not worth it anymore.
Yea, i have to admit that whenever i read of them again now, it makes wanna cry.
Sometimes, memories are hard to let go but i did.
I did let it all go.
'Cos its using up too many space in my heart for a new and better memories with someone even special.

& remembering those days i fought with my babyboy, would sometimes make me cry too.
I just cant believed i did all that to him.
Hurt his feelings and even make him cry and angry.
Its unbelievable.
I am, at some point, disappointed in whatever I've done in the past.
But from what i know, past is past.
All i have to do now, is to look forward and strive for a better life than now.
Im not saying i dont have a good life but i just want to make it even better.
I will push aside all those negativity in me about the past.
I wont let it pull me down.
[even though sometimes i would cry recalling all of them]
♥