♥ Its complicated ♥

This feeling, im feeling right now,

its getting more and more complicated.

I, myself cant desribe it.

I dont know if its a good thing or a bad thing.

But for what i know,

i hate this feeling.

Because i know i should not feel this way.

Im like having doubts.

Its not right.

It just isnt right to feel this way, right now.

I try my very best to run away from it,

but it keep coming back to me.

Just like that.

Its very hard and tiring for me to prevent it from happening.

To prevent myself from feeling this way.

I keep telling myself positive things but when i do that,

more and more negatives thoughts went into my mind.

Sometimes, i would just cry,

wondering why am i feeling this way?

Yes, it hurts.

Hurts alot to feel this way.

But like i have said before, i cant run away from it.

The only thing that i can do is to face it, strongly.

But thats the problem.

I dont think im that strong to face it.

Because of some certain reasons though.

Its hard for me.

For my heart.

I dont know if by keeping all this to myself might worked out,

or i just have to let it all out to someone.

I have no idea.

I just hope God will help me out here.

Bringing me to the right path at the right time.

I know it will happen sooner or later.

Much love

♥Superwoman