Hey. Sorry for the late update though. I wasnt in good mood the whole day. I dont know why but i was so emotional the whole day. I mean im not having my menses ohk? Maybe its bcos im too tired or simply bcos i lack of sleep. I didnt really have a good or enough sleep the last few days. I just dont know why.So last night, everything suddenly came to my mind. All the rubbish past that i thought i have thrown far away from my life. I thought it will never come back. But it did. I was wrong. I just dont know why. And i started to cry. Cry non stop i tell you. I cant sleep. Too scared. Too afraid. Not afriad of anything but im just afraid that i will lose my love ones once more bcos of my own behaviour. It sucks whenever things like that happen. It just brings you down. But people dont seem to understand what im going through everyday. I know. Everyone has their own different life to go through. But it seems hard for me to let people know how i actually feel. Its not that i dont wanna share it but its just that people simply dont wanna hear. It hurts alot. Whenever you talk or express your whole heart out, no one seems to bother or even wanna listen. Then, begins the wrong assumptions. That is what i hate the most. I just dont know what else should i do to let go of this burden off my shoulder. I wanna share with someone but at the same time, i dont wanna bother others. Urgh! See? Im so confused. At times i wanna be open but if im too open then people will have headaches thinking about my problems and adding to that, their own personal problems. I dont know. Im all confused. Im too confused. I dont know where else that i can go to, to just share my problems with? I can only let it out here, in my blog. I just wanna people to just listen to me express myself. At least it will make me feel better. Its ohk if you have nothing to say or comment but at least let me have someone that i can let go my emotion to. I need some guidance. Life is hadr i know. Its never simple especially when you're growing up. You will have more responsibilities. Its really painful you know to keep it all to yourself. Trying to help yourself when you know you cant! But what else can i do? Everyone have their own life. They seem to be busy so i just dont wanna bother them. I hope i can manage all these by myself. Its not going to be simple but what else can i do right? Life still have to move on no matter what. Whether i like it or not, i have to continue my life. Hardships? I guess i wanna try to go through it alone. By myself. Its hard for me to ask people to help me out with my life's problems when i know they have their own too?? Im not that bad ohk? I dont have such ego in me. I think about others too when it comes to things like this. Now, i feel like crying. For real.
I guess im going to stop here before i get too emotional. Maybe i will update more tomorrow or whenever i have the time ohk? Depends on my mood too. Take care ohk? So long! Bye!
Much love
♥Superwoman