Hey! I know i know! Its been so long since i last update this blog. Yea. Shit! Hah. I have been quite busy lately and i actually dont have anything to update up here. So frankly, i just dont have the mood to post anything up. Now, i feel like posting something. I just want to let out my feelings. Been keeping it to myself lately. I dont think i can take it anymore. I guess its best that i let it out here. But before i say anything, i just hope that whatever that im going to say wont hurt anyone's feelings. Its just an expression. Its only my feelings. And anyway, its my blog! So who cares! You dont like what i post up here, then get lost! Simple right? So here goes. Been thinking through some stuffs lately. I dont know where to start right now. Im all confused. I feel like i have been giving him alot of troubles. What happen that night, i might be the cause of that. I felt really guilty about what had happened you know. My mind is blank right now. I dont know what else to say. Serious. Am i a troublemaker? Was i the caused of what had happened? Was i the one who caused him to always get tensed up and ticked him off? I dont know. Maybe? I guess so. I dont seem to have the guts to ask him all that. I dont know why. I love him so much. I feel really sorry for him. He has to go through all this. I feel useless. I can barely make him happy. Theres always problems that he has to faced which i think he dont deserved to. Im really really sorry for him. I feel bad about everything you know. I just dont know how i can make it up to him. Barely him see him. Patient? Been too patient i guess. Haish. Its hard for me and even harder for him i guess. I know. Im trying to be in his shoes. And guess what? I would feel sad and disappointed too. Am i that bad? I know im weak. What can i do right? Im naturally like that. Thats why i need him in my life. He always bring me up when im down. I need him so much. I am nothing without him. Hes my everything. He has something that i cant find in any guy. I dont know what it is but i just can feel it. Maybe the love? I dont know. But i know that soon i will know what it is. So here i am apologising to him for causing him alot of troubles lately. I didnt really mean to do all that to you. Im sorry. I love you!
I guess thats all for today's post. I will update more soon ohk? So hope to see you guys around soon ohk? Take care. So long. Bye!
Much love
♥Superwoman