Morning. Its only like 10:11am right now. I just had my breakfast. I dont really feel that good right now. Mixed feelings and emotions. Theres alot of questions running in my mind and hasnt been answered yet. Im confused by what is going on in my life right now. I dont know how im suppose to go through this. But i know whatever happens, i still have to face it no matter what. I know its going to be very tough for me but i must do it. I know,deep inside, im a strong girl who is capable of handling this kind of matter on her own. Its not the end of the world yet. I know i have to face changes that i dont expect to happen in this moment of time. It doesnt matter what kind of changes but i have to adapt to it sooner or later. But its better for me to adapt to it soon cos i dont wanna suffer long term. Its better that way. I dont wanna force anyone or anything to happen just the way i like it. In this world, that couldnt possibly happen unless i want to be called "CONTROL FREAK". But i hope that all the questions that i have been keeping to myself for quite some right now can be answered by those who are suppose to answer it. I know that you know who im refering to. I just wanna say that dont you ever tell me thet you feel regret over your current actions cos by that time, i would say "IT MIGHT BE TOO LATE". I dont wanna say that to you but if i have to, i will. Im sorry. I've been too kind and too nice to every single guys that have captured my heart. But right now, i've to change that stupid character of mine. I dont wanna be soo nice. But at the same time, i wanna be reasonable. Im slowly seeing the real world right now. Im growing to know that sometimes to be happy, you've to make your loved ones happy first. Its difficult, i know. But its the fact and i cant change it for you. Maybe to some of you, this point of mine might be wrong. Everyone have their own point of view on this. But thats mine. Im currently feeling quite mixed up. Im feeling angry, disappointed, sad and happy. You see what i mean. I dont even really know how i actually feel. It so difficult. This keep happening ever since that incident happened last week. If i dont control my emotions, soon im going to lose control of myself. And when that happen, anything can possibly happen. But im just scared. Scared of the term "SILENT BREAKUP". Thats all. I dont know how i would react if that really happen. Im thinking of this cos i think im losing that grip. I dont know. My mind is blank right now after i wrote that. I just dont want that to happen to me. It would be a huge breakdown for me. I think i have to stop right here. I cant go any further cos i would definitely cry. And its difficult for me to stop crying later. So i better not continue ohk. Im sorry i cant write anymore. I just dont want to feel weak over some matter like this. And i dont wanna make the guy think that im weak too. Ive change and im stronger now with my friends and family members by my side! They are all that i need right now. I dont care if he dont love me anymore cos i cant force him to love me. I get it. If people can change, so can the heart.
Ohk. I guess thats all i have for today. I dont wanna to have a bad mood. So thats all folks! I will update soon. If im bored, i will update later aite. But i dont promise anything! =D Stay healthy and stay away from any trouble! Enjoy your life and do something or anything that makes you feel happy! Dont let anything or anyone destroy your way of life! You have to continue your life no matter what happen ohk! If you wanna talk about something or wanna share something with me, just email me at mira_icechilli@hotmail.com. That goes the same for my msn. Its better to share them than to keep it to yourself. Im willing to lend you my ears and some piece of my brain! hehe. So do email me if you wanna share some things with me. Dont be shy.
I love all of you guys reading my blog! Thank you so much and i appreciate it that you read my blog. It means alot to me. Now, i feel a lil relief after i wrote all that. But theres more and i think i will write all that soon ohk? Right now, im just going to chill and let my mind free from all those mess! So i think i might go and rest right now. Furthermore, i dont feel good. I think im having a fever. So i got to go now. Update soon ohk. You guys take care of yourself. Bye!
Much love
♥Superwoman