Hey peeps! Wassup? Its like only 9:50am. Its early, i know. But i cant simply sleep after what had happen yesterday. It was a shock of my life for me when he ask for it. He told me that it was the best for us but i disagree with him. From my point of view, i think its only the best for him and not the best for me. Im hurt inside and does he even know that? No i guess. I dont know what to say anymore right now. I have been crying since yesterday and now MY EYES ARE DAMN BLOODY RED! Argh! Haish. Now, im cooled down after i had some thought over this. Its easy to say sorry you know but the fact that, can the person whom you just hurt forgive you??Its hard. I've been through this a THOUSAND times and i dont know why i nvr learnt from my mistakes! What is wrong with me??!!! You know FADZ, you've just shattered my heart into millions and millions of pieces. Its like you take a vase and you SMASH it to the ground when you're pissed off! The broken pieces you see on the ground is exactly the same like my shattered heart! I guess you dont care about how i feel like?? Well, its ohk. As long as you're happy, im happy too i guess. I hope that by doing these things to me, you can see things better cos i dont! For your info, i didnt sleep last night. I was thinking about US! I recalled the SWEET memories we had together! Trust me, i can filled up a pail with my tears yesterday. Yea, i know! WTH! Why must i be thinking of these things right?? I also dont know! Im confused, hurt, disappointed, frustrated and more. All those emotions are mixed up and thats why i dont know what and why im doing things that im not suppose to do! Haish. But i dont blame him only for this. i know i hv done something wrong that have hurt his feelings badly. I get it though. This is our relationship, so both of us are to be blame for what had happen. I've listen to your part of your story. And i understand how you feel. So, if you think im the wrong, im sorry. But with what you have done yesterday, i dont think the word 'SORRY' will do the magic of healing my heart that is shattered into millions of pieces. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! I dont know what else to say. But i hope through this blog, you will actually know how i feel and how i suffer! And i know im not the only one! And to FADZ, if you're reading this, just remember that i will always love you but im sorry i can't make you happy and im sorry cos im done so many wrong things to you.Thats all for today though. Im not in the mood to write anymore. So, im gonna have to stop here. im sorry guys. Have a great day ahead!
Much love
♥Superwoman